We were told that the rose garden peaked early because it had been so warm. Well, we missed that! It rained most of the week we were there which was okay, since we were supposed to be inside writing anyway; however, the weather was also quite cool and the rain made the old stone house even colder. Coming from the Midwest where the summers are unbelievably hot, I had some trouble adjusting to the environment. I was told that these old houses were built to ward off the summer heat (and found it difficult to believe that there is any!) - that they could always warm them in winter; however, there were no blazing fires in the fire places, so we sat around in coats and sweaters with a tiny portable heater in our meeting room. I took this as part of the charm of the entire experience.
I, who live alone, was delighted to be in a house where there was constant conversation and instant companionship. Although my bedroom was over the parlor where people stayed up late into the night conversing (and I couldn't sleep), I just enjoyed their "presence" - telling myself that I can sleep when I get home. From the moment I walked in the Manor, I felt like I was in a movie ("The Big Chill" without the jerks).
Our two teachers were Robert Olen Butler and Michele Roberts. Each teacher led a three-hour session each day (which meant we were really working hard). How I loved sitting around that huge table with my teachers and fellow students. Amazing, amazing, amazing things happened.
Eight students - all women - were in attendance. This was a wonderful, wonderful group who worked so well together. Every person was lovely, with her own unique life experience and stories to tell. I don't think I've ever been in such a diverse group of people - it was fascinating! There was a LOT of talent in this group and nothing but support for each other. What with such phenomenal teachers and lovely students, the writing week was excellent in every way!
Shaida, born in Pakistan (whose mother died when she was five and her father, when she was 12), now teaches in a secondary school in London. She is very involved in advancing the rights of women.
Natalie - an English woman with a lovely upper-class accent. I was so curious about her background and later in the week learned one parent is Swiss and the other from Sri Lanka (explaining her gorgeous features). She lives with her husband in Hong Kong and she writes for the Financial Times.
Mikyung - dear, dear Mikyung - born in Korea, raised in Japan, now living in Hong Kong with her Parisian-raised, Cambodian husband. She writes beautifully in English (her third language!).
Leslie, a New Yorker - whose lovely French husband Jean and adopted daughter Natalie (from China) were with her.
And then there was me, Dee Canfield, from Moline, Illinois.
Nancy was the organizer of the event and she was always in the kitchen cooking meals for us. Every morning she prepared a delicious breakfast and every evening she prepared a gourmet dinner. More importantly, she was the conference organizer who brought all these wonderful people together and made this amazing week happen.
The owner of the Manor House is Michele - from Israel - half German, half Dutch (whose mother was at Auschwitz). Michele is a very interesting woman and was a delightful host (who, one evening, sold me a gorgeous lapis lazuli bracelet she had made from stones that she and Darius had traveled to Jaipur to buy).
Darius is a wonderful artist, whose works adorn the Manor. He is also a gardener who tends the surrounding gardens and parks. He is a lovely, kind man, with a cultured English accent who reminded me of a sexy, aging English rock star. And the stories he could tell - fascinating! (By the end of the week I really wasn't sure which stories were true, which were embellished, and which were complete fabrications, but I was charmed, I'm sure!)
Puccini (one of Michele's three little dogs) and the garden
The gardens are large and little pathways and bridges lead one into charming nooks and crannies. In fact, while walking alone one night, I became disoriented and felt quite panicky. It was getting on 10 pm and beginning to rain and I couldn't make my way out. The next day I went around the gardens again to see where I had gone wrong. I discovered that at one point I had been very, very close to the manor house; however, that I had ended up backtracking my way all the way to the other end of the garden, near the poplar trees, where I had exited and then walked up the broad, open expanse, back to the manor house.
My thoughts, as written on the last day of the workshop:
Today is the end of the week-long writing retreat. I am standing at my bedroom window overlooking the gorgeous garden. I look up and see a large continent of bright, white cloud majestically moving across a deep aquamarine sky. There is sweet birdsong in the air and I have a feeling of deep gratitude in my heart.
After I have written a piece that works I often fear that I can't ever do it again.For example, in applying for this workshop I submitted a couple of pieces of my best writing, and when the workshop began I entered into the writing exercises hesitantly because underneath it all I felt that I would not be able to match the writing that I had submitted to get here in the first place.
The creative spark is in all of us and I believe it is in this way that we are in the image of God. So if this spark manifests through all things (including the workings of my own subconscious) why do I harbor such fears and accept such limitations? From where does such arrogance arise? I say "arrogance" because words and images are gifts and I am the receiver. I do not will good writing, nor is it born conceptually. As long as I am open and faithful (and as long as I practice, practice, practice - not just writing, but listening and visioning from that place from where I dream), the act of creating will continually work its magic. I have found that sacred place within myself this week and I am thankful, thankful, thankful.